Miss You

Woa......

Miss you, deep inside.
But I can't tell.
Sucks, ain't it?
I wish you knew.

A little pray for you today.
May you go through this day with happiness.
The happiness you gimme everyday since you came into mine.

I may not be there for you to hug.
But these hugs are always belong to you.
Take it whenever you want....

Nice day and God bless you always....
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In The Arms of Time

In the arms of time
I stood there waiting for soul
Longing for a heart to be strengthened

In the arms of time
Love has been dwindled with hatred
Spirit run away, never felt its warmth

In the arms of time
Hope twisted with fear
Faith never fed enough lights

In its labyrinth and its maze
Not much more to gaze
It never showed
The mystery of being loved

Will it hit me to the death?
Will it throw me to darkness?

I have lived and died thousands
And once again I live

I know what I want
Fight for one I’ve dreamt

In the arms of time
My soul is awaken once more
To bury hatred, to grow love
To catch spirit in the blowing winds
To kill fear for everlasting hope
To feed faith with hundreds stars

I will win this war
I will smile in the end
In the arms of time

Nevertheless I fail
I will always rise up
And fight again with more faith
The strength of my heart forged
Coz I will always believe
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Can God be Trusted in Our Trials?

2.59 p.m.

Today I bought a book. I have finished reading the first chapter and it was good. Can God be Trusted in Our Trials by Dr. Tony Evans. Not a thick book, just 79 pages in it. The first chapter is really touching. He said that our trials have its positive goal. God Work through His mysterious ways though.

I’m continue reading this book. Hope it will make me get closer to my Creator.
God bless u all…
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Summer Movies

10.01 a.m.
Another day….

I’m a movie freak. I like movies a lot. I have dvd collections. But dun tell anyone, I do buy piracies. Hehehehe…

This summer (is there any summer in Jakarta??), I spent much money to go to cinemas. Unfortunately, movies that I expected will give me some ‘excitement’, were ‘bla bla bla…’. I dunno, maybe I’m being sarcastic, but those films doesn’t give me any ‘WOW’ words.

Spiderman 3 was so so. Nothing’s special. The story is too plain. Just ‘okay’…. When I watched its trailer, I thought it would be great. But the only thing made me impressed was just when Venom (Topher Grace)opened his mouth… hahahaha…..


Next, Pirates of Carribean : At World Ends. Better I guess. Though so many complications in it, but at least there is something to think about. I thing its duration wasn’t long enough to really explain its complicated thing. Will there be any sequel? I don’t know…. I hope, with better story, of course.

Ocean Thirteen. Blah… Not better than its prequel.

Fantastic Four : Rise of Silver Surfer. Funnier and better than before. I think maybe it would be better if the title was “Silver Surfer and The Fantastic Four”. Silver surfer was the hero. He played the good and bad side almost perfectly. The Fantastic Four looked like sweetener. Hehehehe…. But, this movie is much better than the net man I mention above. Jess was hot, actually. - blinking eyes –



I don’t watch Shrek. Is it good?

Now, my last hope is Harry Potter and The Order of Phoenix. Anyone to watch it with me?

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When There Was Me And You

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want

Is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe

Miracles could happen

Cause now I have to pretend

That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale

A dream when I'm not sleeping

A wish upon a star thats coming true

But everybody else could tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody

That I heard you singing

And when you smiled

You made me feel

Like I could sing along

But then you went and changed the words

Now my heart is empty

I'm only left with used-to-be's

Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale

And dreams were meant for sleeping

And wishes on a star just don't come true

Cause now even I can tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

Cause I liked the view

When there was me and you

I can't believe that

I could be so blind

It's like you were floating

While I was falling

And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view

Thought you felt it too

When there was me and you

I found this song is so beautiful, especially to them whose heart is broken or shattered.
Read it, but don't get too deep, this kind of song doesn't make you any better.
It makes you drown to your grief.
Cheer up, 'coz there's always hope....

When you see this picture (Taken from Resident Evil : Extinction), what do you see?

Is it hope? Or extinction?

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Future? Not Sure

2 p.m.
Waiting is sucks. There are couple problems but I can barely solve them because I have to wait. Yeah, I work in big team, and I have to wait other divisions do their part so that I can finish mine.

Meantime, I don’t have anything to do.

At 9 a.m this morning, my IM beeped, and I found it was my friend. She felt alone, no one to hold, no one’s beside. And most of all, she wasn’t sure bout her future. I guess all of us ever felt like that.

Yeah, maybe we are all the same. I do have friends. I do have best friends. I can share. But somehow, there is something I don’t tell. Maybe it’s my darkest secret. And this dark secret consumes me. I dunno how to handle but indeed, I can’t tell no one.

People listen to us, friends do hear us. But I feel they don’t really understand. No, I never blame them. In fact, I may do so.

I’m not sure what I’m gonna be, whom I’m going to be with. I’m not sure ‘bout my future. What will it brings me? I’ll never be able to predict the future. I don’t have any plan, bad side of me I guess. But once again, if I can say good things of me, I live for today, hehehehe…. (don’t try this at home!)

Yeah, if I keep asking myself or keep filling my head with those doubts, I will never be happy, rite? All I can do now, is doing everything I think it’s best with my best.

Cage in his film ever said , ‘Accepting that is not easy, but easy doesn’t come to grown-up’s life’. I think that is true. As long as I accept who I really am, who my friends and family really are, or whatever happen to me, and try to be positive all the time, I will be happy. No matter what the future brings me, I will face it with no fear.

So I just said to my friend “Have faith, have hope. As long as u have it, you’ll survive”. Then she said “It’s hard to still have hope when life doesn’t give any.” I thought, ‘yeah I guess she’s right this time’.

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Soulmate

Here I am, sitting in front of my desktop, waiting for emails.
Sumtimes this job makes me crazy. Hehehehe...
Actually I don’t know what to write, just wasting my spare time, coz there isn’t much to do lately.

If get back to 24 years ago, I was just an innocent baby, but now two decades later, I’m a young man, searching for his soul. Too poetic? I guess so. Hahaha…

In this life (perhaps I will get another life, I don’t know), I have so many things in mind that I want badly. For now, I am really eager to have someone special. Classic? Yeah, seems so. My age, I can’t say it’s too green to have someone, I have friends at my age that already has an one year old child. Geez…

But, this want doesn’t make me ‘in a rush’. I know I will meet her in HIS time. Meanwhile, I enjoy my loneliness…. So sad? Nope! I’m in so much happiness.

Do I feel alone? Yeah, of course, some other times. But, amazingly, I always have friend to be with or things to do. And, absolutely, I have HIM. Okay, enough for now…. Ciao.... Flap more...